Spiritual Growth is not a Linear Process

Today, I will address the fact that spiritual growth is not linear. I have been reading Master More’s book again [1] , in connection with the First Ray vigil and I had the following insight:

Even though we may be at a certain level in the 144 possible levels of consciousness on Earth, we still have aspects of ourselves that stem from the distant past.

At certain moments, these selves can arise in our minds and cause us to react to earthly conditions and circumstances.

And why is that? Because we are still carrying our four material bodies with us. Although we have cleaned them considerably, they are still there, and some wounds are hidden within them.

Master more says:«(…) there is a limit to how much you can actually accelerate yourself through the Flame of Purity. Because you still have certain wounds in your subconscious minds, in the emotional, mental, and identity levels of the mind.»[2]

So, rather than seeing the spiritual path as a straight line without detours, we can see it as a spiral.

 At times, this path "touches" aspects of our old mindset, giving us the opportunity to see them in a new light.

As Mother Mary said so many times, we are no longer the same beings that we were when those selves were created in the past.

We can therefore look at them from the outside and see that they are not us, and we are not them. Moreover, it is time to let them go and allow them to die in our four material bodies.

The Self that Feels Rejected

One of these 'out-of-touch' selves is that of the person who feels rejected. When they feel rejected in response to something they did with the best of intentions, and this is denied or rejected by others, they sulk and withdraw, closing themselves off in their shell as a definitive and irreversible act.

As spiritual students, we can recognise this self as a pure illusion born from the pride of the mortal identity, which demands 'respect', consideration or even 'recognition'.

But what does this self have to do with us, with our true identity as spiritual beings? The answer is simple: nothing. Our spiritual identity is no longer focused on the 'I', so it no longer perceives reality through the lens of a separate being with a high sense of self-importance.

When we view the self from a spiritual perspective, we recognise its unreality and irrelevance.

After all, we are not here to bolster the overly self-absorbed and self-important mortal self, but rather to contribute to something greater than ourselves - the whole of life.

We are incapable of doing this when we are stuck in the 'me first' mindset. Therefore, the part of us that feels rejected by others will accompany us until we overcome the self-centred focus that leads us to blame others for our suffering or discomfort.

However, when we have progressed further in our development of Christ consciousness - union above all else - we are able to recognise the irrelevance of the self that feels rejected and therefore withdraw from those it believes have abandoned it.

This is the moment when that self can effectively and permanently die.

This is because the beliefs that sustained it, and the sense of identity on which it was based, have ceased to exist.

The beliefs that sustained it and the sense of identity on which it rested have ceased to exist.

At this moment, our growth spiral can take a step forward towards union with not only our divine presence, but also with all parts of life.

[1] Master More, The Mystic Initiations of Power, dictated through the messenger Kim Michales, 2021

[2] Id., p. 170-171