So, I want to share about my experience and progress.
I was on trip as family in Germany for one week lately and one day before I left I had a vision of intention to go to the parliament house in Berlin and give invocation there.
I didn't know how this was going to happen but on that day we made normal tourist stuff traveling around the city and I realized I don't have any other interest in that trip than to give that invocation there and be the open door, so after our daytrip with my partner I said , "enough!", I will now go there, because I relialized reluctance growing and energies lowering to go there.
I then traveled there to the parliamentary house and it was massive ( to my human ego). There wasn't anymore much people walking and I walked around the building trying to find good spot to give invocation and after a while I found a nice place from nearby the river 40m away which was place that actet almost like amfitheather in front of the parliament building.
I didn't pre-planned what invocation I would give and as I scrolled through e-book files I got strong sense to give Invocation for Healing the Psyche of Europe which I then started giving aloud in the open.
I must say that evening part of my ego died during the invocation, as I have had a big fear of being exposed or take my first steps expressing my self publicly. So, people walked by and there was this fear that what if somebody interrupts me or accuses me and certainly I felt on emotional level dark forces howling at me, trying to make me stop doing what I was doing.
I did the invocation, it felt like eternity doing it as it is long invocation. As I was doing invocation part of me melt away in the sense that part that was yet analyzing and giving matter to what others think about me, so in the sense in the flow I begun to flow with higher respect for my own free will and being more at peace respecting other peoples free will to be any opinion about my doings.
Once I did the invocation I recognized my job is done and I immediately left, there was no need to feel overly pride.
As Padmasambhava said, " when your gift is given, your task is comlete".
I understand this statement that we don't need to create attachments to our fruits, this is what ego wants, it wants ownership over the gifts of Christ so I didn't gave opportunity for my ego to dwell in that light. I just was happy to give my service and move on, no need to be special here, overly glowing.
This was important step for me because I now know that I am the open door for the service where there is need and opportunity
I also overcame certain doubt that Ascended Host wants to humiliate me by exposing me to situations what I can not handle. This is the will of dark forces, not the will of ascended host. So if I listen to my heart I will know when it is my opportunity to express my Christhood but that I must surrender to the flow and not be bound by analytical mind, should I do this or not. In flow I just know when it is time, when the door is open.
- Arttu
Some time back I had experienced something similar. We made public decrees with a small group of about 8 people. They were used to do that, but I was not..... meaning that I experienced probably something similar to what you did, I believe. Something felt off for me, so I was not at ease either while it seemed to be normal for the rest of the group, as it seemed (although we did not discuss nor address this)....
Looking at it from my perspective and in hindsight, I feel that when something feels "off" that something is not right, otherwise I would feel differently. When something doesn't feel right, I conclude that higher energies may not flow through me unhampered,…
Arttu, I am always inspired by your will and determination to BE. This is a clearly a creative way to be an instrument and once again inspiring. Thank you Brother for being YOU, the open door. 🌞Anu.
I can feel that fear in me just reading about your experience, expectation of what will happen if you do it. Maybe one day! 😀
Yes, we can be an instrument for God's light, but you still to make that decision to be the open door and that's awesome! Onwards and upwards!
What a beautiful service to give and I love it when we unquestioningly follow our intuition to do such things. Bravo, my friend! I think that not sticking around for an ego boost is such an important thing to do - good point made.
I understand the feeling of being exposed when doing invocations in public. I've kinda been forced into feeling fine with it, as I live a gypsy life which means I am often in campgrounds where there is not really any privacy. I have become accustomed to just continuing on with my decreeing when people walk past. I have rationalised that people have no qualms with talking on their mobiles in public, so I just think that…